4 am whispers

ѕᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇѕ ᴡᴇ ᴊᴜѕᴛ ᴀʀᴇɴ’ᴛ ᴍᴇᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴡᴀɴᴛ, ᴀѕ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴀѕ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪѕ ᴛᴏ ᴀᴄᴄᴇᴘᴛ. ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ, ᴏɴᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴅᴇғᴇᴄᴛѕ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪѕ ᴡᴇᴀᴋ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴏғ ᴍɪɴᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇѕ ᴜɴᴄᴏɴᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ, ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ ɪᴛ ᴅᴏᴇѕɴ’ᴛ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜᴘ. 

ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ ʙʀᴀɪɴ, ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ѕᴍᴀʀᴛᴇʀ. ᴊᴜѕᴛ ᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴋѕ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴄᴏɴѕᴛᴀɴᴛ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴀᴄʜᴇѕ ᴀɴᴅ ѕᴏ ᴍᴀɴʏ ѕᴇɪᴢᴜʀᴇѕ. 

ᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʟᴇᴛѕ ᴍᴇ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴍʏ ᴏᴡɴ ᴀᴅᴅʀᴇѕѕ…ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴍᴇ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪ’ᴅ ʟᴏѕᴇ ᴍʏ ѕᴘᴀʀᴋ ᴏғ ᴡᴇɪʀᴅɴᴇѕѕ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛɪᴠɪᴛʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴋᴇѕ ᴍᴇ…..ᴍᴇ. 

ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴀᴡᴀʏ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ʙʀᴀɪɴ, ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ…ᴀɴᴅ

I’m not sure who I’d be anymore, is that a good thing? Probably. I’m not a very lovable creature but I do think I’m meant to be exactly how I’m put together for a specific reason. Whether I understand it or not.

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